Follow your heart, but be quiet at first

This weeks lesson was all about trust in timing and in given situations.  No matter how organized we tend to think we can keep things together in our lives, there are bound to be those times and incidents where we have to accept and trust a situation will get better.  The hardest part about this concept for me, is the fact that I tend to over think things... a lot!  I may be accepting of a situation, however when my mind decides to, thoughts beyond thoughts and anxiety even begin to take over.  I am slowly but surely learning to handle and challenge these inner thoughts and feelings by accepting something for what it is, moving on from it and having a positive encouraging thought in the back of my mind rather than a million potential negative and questionable ones. 

A sad reality has to come to me where I have to sell one of the most important things in my life, my sweet horse Marvin.  I found him a great home and am very excited for his new owners to take him places and teach him new things since he is still a baby and learning.  This week Marvin caught himself in a fence and ended up tearing a hole in his skin that led straight to his bone.  Luckily there was no fracture and he was placed under vet care immediately.  I was mortified to call his new owner who had driven from California to Arizona to tell her the horrible new.  I could not help but think to myself on how horrible the timing was and more so how horrible it is for me to see him this way.  He is having a difficult time putting pressure on the leg but I have been working with him every day to help him walk at his own pace.  He has made great progress even within a few days but it is still a hard sight for me to see him in so much pain and struggle.  My concept of trust in this situation, is to trust that he will for sure get better and he will be even stronger than before.  Oddly enough I have found that I have to trust in the timing of this situation as well.  Instead of over thinking why this could have happened to me or poor Marvin at this time, I have to be strong and stable for the both of us and trust in his progress, health and future happiness.

His new owner was very understanding of the situation and wishes him all the best.  She cannot wait until she can finally come pick him up once he is healed, and I am grateful to have found such a wonderful person to take further care of him.  It's interesting the situations we find ourselves having to use trust in.  For me personally, I thought this was a new way to utilize this concept and I can even see it along the lines of having and keeping up with faith.  This one sure has been a difficult lesson to watch because I absolutely cannot bear seeing my child (as I call him since I have raised him since he was a baby), be in pain, suffering and struggling.  He is a tough boy though and I know he will pull through with the faith that me and his future owner are executing.  Lesson learned, trust that things do get better as well as fall into place accordingly.